What was done to me created me.
But what's to say what created me?
Was it the interactions I've had with others up to this?
Was it the simple action of my parents?
I haven't the answers nor have I the questions?
Yet I have the unqestionable hatred that fuels me to questioning.
The fuel towards hatred leads me towards drinking.
Not the only solace from these thoughts but a very simple solution.
Embrace it for what it is and hate others for what they make it out to be.
And in the end, be left with your thoughts.
Whether the same or different from what they were at the age of 21.
Thoughts they still will be.
It's a fear of what might be
Unbeknownst and unseen
The escence of living
As human beings put it
From which I cannot escape nor prove
A knowledge if it's to be called that
Neither false nor true
Towards the best of understanding
Searching to rebel
Rebelling to search
Seeking to find
Truths that may not come through death
Soldiering through experience
Contemplating new interpretations
Simply to return
To the fear of what might be
Or not
My future destined is only one bullet,
Everything else will fade away,
All of the anger and all of the misgivings,
Will be a testimony of my last breath.
When barren and lifeless I lay,
Underneath six feet and a grave,
I will finally be at peace,
But won’t be alive to enjoy it.
The story will end and the bigotry will carry on,
But not within my mind,
And that will be my final proven worth over the world,
When I decide my own end.
All is subdued in the comfort of our homes,
Thoughts rarely linger on the wild beyond city limits,
Life becomes redundant when the mind becomes stagnant,
Technology cannot overpower that which is mother nature,
Vast expanses of forest plowed over and paved,
People dying from the results of our own pollution,
The human race will one day perish because of our actions,
And nature will flourish as it was in the beginning.
Pushing through the badlands of misery,
Crimson decay at its best,
Vengeful thinking.
Careening down the road of what might have been,
Gutless lies of the past,
Pathetic existence.
Stepping beyond the boundaries of sanity,
Blackened veil of foresight,
Treading on.
Solace of the past is hope for the future,
Mystic light in the black,
Human's hope.
Change to change and live to die,
Stories repeated twice over,
Passing through this unwanted pain,
Wishing to do it all over.
Current Residence: WI Favourite genre of music: Metal, Folk, Bluegrass Favourite style of art: pics that don't need digital enhancement to make them look good, black and white Operating System: Win XP
Favourite Visual Artist
Brom, Doolittle, Rockwell, Redlin
Favourite Writers
Frost, Muir, Thoreau
Favourite Games
beer pong
Tools of the Trade
pack, tent, and camera
Other Interests
Cheap laughs and wanting women. Or is it cheap women and wanting laughs?
50,000 words - 1 month
With such a mellow/sullen mood that comes along with writing extensively I need some killer music to keep my brain going. In all likely hood I'll need quite a bit of heavy shit for this feat. Here's a good one for the current times and just some good metalcore. En-fucking-joy!
Atreyu - Bleeding Mascara
a wraith with an angel's body
a demon with a smile of gold
you soul sucker
i wont become like you
a killer with the perfect weapons
crystal eyes and a heart of coal
you soul sucker
i wont loose myself in you
look how pretty she is
when she falls down
and theres no beauty in
bleeding mascara
her lips are qui
To question just how great heaven could actually be also brings into question just how bad hell could be. I've experienced the sublime in life and it's pretty nice. I've also experienced the most worst of times. To wonder whether or not heaven could present a more sublime sense of being is a wonder, for I do not know if I care to be any happier. At the same time, it's a wonder to think how hell could get any worse than the lowest states of living could be. Though when I think about it, it is very possible to experience much worse in hell than I have on earth. If I had the choice, I think I'd choose the first.
Hello! I'm in a crazy mood so I'm running rampant around dA saying HI to all I see and checking out their work!
So here's a big hello and I hope you're having a good day